Along Came Phoenix

4 months ago.. (Wait really?? It's already been 4 months?! What the.... ) anyway 4 months ago our sweet little boy joined us in this crazy life of ours! I feel like I've been so distracted with so many things since his birth that I don't share enough about him, post enough photos or just simply talk on and on about him! Well... The truth is, I really am kind of obsessed with him, like really. I am definitely going to be that mom that still kisses him on the cheeks when he is 15 years old! He has literally stolen my heart and that's why I just wanted to write a little post today ALL about him! 

It's not that I don't share a lot of him because I don't want to or that I don't take photos of him (I really don't, maybe 5 a day.. 5 times a day!!) I think I've just been really soaking it all in plus let's be honest, you can only get so creative with photos of an immobile baby haha. I thought Paige was the perfect and most easy and happy baby until this little MR.   came along! She was still so good to us but this cutie is pretty much ALWAYS happy. And let me tell you, it's contagious.

I think it's interesting how I was so nervous to have a second child. I was cherishing the last months, weeks, and days that I had alone with Paige as if there was some sort of sad ending approaching us. I mean, it had just been her, daddy, and me for over 3 years. We had a solid thing going and I felt like she was just my little best friend! I kept worrying how this baby was going to affect our relationship, and if it was going to make her feel abandoned or less important in some way. I honestly had the worry that I maybe wouldn't love him as strongly as I loved Paige. Well of course I was wrong and thankfully none of those concerns were real. My love for Paige grew even stronger after Phoenix was born and of course my heart made sure there was plenty of room for that sweet boy. As my husband told me while I was pregnant, "he is going to fill a space in our family that we didn't even know was missing, and he will make us even more complete." And he definitely did. 

Things haven't been easy around here the last couple months and I've had some really, really hard days. Cliche as it may sound, he has been a light in the darkness for me. His sweet smile and warm snuggles just fill me up with hope, gratitude, and an overwhelming sense of purpose. I think he knew exactly who I was and what I needed before he came here. He is a mama's boy for sure and makes it a point every day to make me smile and make me feel like I'm the most special person in the world. It's so crazy how such a small little person can impact your life in such a major way and how 4 months can seem like an entire lifetime! I'm beyond grateful for my little Phoenix and I can't imagine this life without him. ><Holly><